Friends, people who you converse with on any level, spend time with and enjoy many of the things you do. Realize that I don't up until I joined twitter I didn't talk to alot of people not out of choice but as choices made for me because someone else didn't like them for this or that. It got to the point that I wouldn't talk to people at all except at work about work. Yeah married but when you try and talk about things, anything, and the response is what does that have to do with us, conversation ender. Very limited topic there and thus I basically stopped talking to just about anyone. I was losing social skills quickly. Was realizing that the friends I had were my friends and I lost them because of decision I made. I managed to keep one friend (30 yrs) and now just about her whole family but they don't like my other half so much.
Friends are people who help shape your life, how you look at things and the decisions you make on your next step in life. I think of all the friends I have lost over time and those I would love to find again but have been unable to because of circumstances of them or me and contact has been lost. One friend out of many retained because we are so close that we cared and shared so much and still talk to this day, spent the 4th of July down there.
So the friends that you meet and get close to hold onto them. Don't live in isolation remain in contact with them. Talk about the times behind and the times ahead. Keep up the friendship reagardless of what anyone says because they are YOUR friends and no one elses.
WOW this one stirred up some painful memories.. in regards to friends.. let me just say.. friends you stop talking to will ask whats wrong & after finding out the problem, will still attempt to stay in touch.. otherwise I feel they are NOT true friends.. A few years back when addicted to hard drugs.. I lost ALL my so-called friends.. these were friends who ive shared the good times with and have known for years.. yet when I was at my lowest point, they all disappeared.. just when I needed them the most.. seeing this made me slink deeper into depression and drug despondancy.. it made me cautious who I call friends from that moment on.. locking myself in my own lil dark world.. luckily for me.. I climbed out of that drug hell with all my resolve and put my life together.. I went back to college, attended drug counselling training & yoga and met some new friends.. but still that experience has taught me some hard lessons and is burned into my subconscious and it makes me weary.. to this day even after all the time that has passed, I still cant say that I have a best friend.. sure there is lots of aquaintances but noone exclusive. and I have discovered its just the way I like it.. I find it very hard to trust people.. family for me is most important now and my boy who confides in me & shares some deep moments.. great post Scott..even if I cried a little reading it thanks for sharing xx
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